Well, I think that I am now in this stage of the grief process–Depression.  I know God is with me and I am not alone, but I just don’t feel like doing anything or going anywhere.  It’s like I wander around the house trying to figure out what I am supposed to be doing.  

I study the Bible and pray.  I know God hears me.  I know He fills me with His peace and his deep joy because of His love, but on the surface of my emotions I am hurting.  I am living Ps. 42 & 43.  which both end with “hope in God, for I shall again praise Him.”  I want to go through the process of grieving.  I don’t want to suppress anything.  God is letting me feel my loss (finally) and it is numbing.