It is always good to get away for a while, but even better to be back at home.  However, this time the return was much more difficult as the reality of my new normal set in even deeper still.  No one to come back to, no one to call while on the trip to share daily events. I am missing my honey tremendously now.  God is taking the cocoon off more layers at a time it seems now and I am feeling more of the pain of loss.  Even now in the midst of this, I know my Lord Jesus is with me.  I am grateful for the 49 years we had together–even the difficult ones.  Maybe, especially the difficult ones since that is when I learned to rely on the Lord for my needs and then He gave me the desires of my heart in my relationship with Frank.  

God is always good; always knows what is best; always cares so tenderly for me.  Even in the midst of pain, I cannot help but praise Him for Who He is.