This picture was taken on Oct. 4, 2013.  The last picture taken with Frank and our sons.  A year ago today, October 15, 2013,  Frank was admitted into the hospital and the final battle of his life began.  He had aspiration pneumonia  resulting from his previous cancer surgery and radiation.  Little did we realize then … Continue reading A year ago today

I was told recently that "You have surrounded myself with good people. You are good people."  Wow!  It was not the time to enter a debate about worthiness, so for the moment I let it slide.  I know that I will reopen this conversation again because the Scripture says that there is none good.  No not one.  All … Continue reading Good people

After coming home from the hospital with knee surgery and facing my first night at home alone, I really felt the ache of loss deeper.  The pain medication wasn't working properly (I misunderstood the directions) and the pain filled sleepless night was no fun.  I didn't really want to do anything.  So I began listening to … Continue reading Alone — but not alone

Another sentence we were asked to respond to during the grief group was: " I miss ______ the most when...."  I miss Frank the most on Sunday during church and after.  Of course, being prejudiced, I don't think anyone can preach as well as he.  His loving spirit for the people was so evident in everything he … Continue reading Miss him most….

I have always known  the best people in the world are found in the church.  These past 20 years Frank and I served in a small church with some very wonderful people.  We had to close the church last April (2013) because the mostly senior citizen congregation had either moved away or gone home to be … Continue reading The church

I was asked this weekend in our grief support group to complete the following sentence: The thing I learned from my husband most is.... The first thing that came to my mind is that I learned how to love from him.  His love for me was consistent and complete.  He was forgiving when I hurt him … Continue reading What I learned

Keeping my grandson this week.  He has asperger's syndrome which is a form of autism.  He communicates quite well but doesn't enjoy much interaction with others.  Although, he came out of his room yesterday saying that he hasn't been spending enough time talking with me.  So we talked about various subjects and then he asked … Continue reading Grandson’s conversation

It seems life just doesn't stop even when we want to just slow down and think.  My plumbing stopped up this week end (Labor Day!) and nothing would drain by Monday evening.  Finally on Tuesday, I called and plumber came out.  After 2 days trying to unstop it, we decided that the only solution is … Continue reading Normal??

It is always good to get away for a while, but even better to be back at home.  However, this time the return was much more difficult as the reality of my new normal set in even deeper still.  No one to come back to, no one to call while on the trip to share daily … Continue reading Back from Trip

How I enjoy worshiping in the family God has given me.  Great time of singing and listening to the message God placed upon our pastor's heart.  Sharing the love with other believers and simply enjoying my God.  Grateful to the Lord Jesus Christ who makes this possible through His death and resurrection on our behalf.  I … Continue reading Beautiful